Hi everyone who continue watching me since i never active anymore in 2009. I'm very happy when i still able to see all the add watches and add favs UNTIL NOW!
Firstly i feel so sorry for not active in drawing anymore, which is very sad i know. I having artblock and lost motivation since 2009. I can't overcome it and i feel my art is suck and can't be compare with everyone. I even open a booth in every event but somehow it didn't sell good, which make me less confident about my drawing skill. And it even goes worst after i graduated and started my working life. It give me a very good excuse such as no time, work over times, tiring; all kind of excuses is supporting my art block and motivation. SO! i stopped drawing.
But i still continue fangirling on my fav anime, manga and BL pairing. My brains keeps running and thinking about THIS & THAT, oh ya, AND ALL THOSE R18 Stuff! /smirk. Starting from last year, i wish to draw again because i wanna fullfill my desire due to my fav fandom is lack of love. so i start to draw, OMGOSH IS SUCH A UGLY DRAWING, ya after stopped drawing for 2 years, my drawing skill is worst than 2 years before where the period i think my drawing is suck. NO, is not, i think i was awesome last time. I can draw so well! but because i keep looking at others awesome artist work, care about those FAVs, care too much! seriously, i wish that time i didn't give up drawing, i believe i will be much more better now.
So now, i trying to REVIVE my art sense and drawing skill. But in a very slow progress. Luckily, after i changed my job in July 2012, i got more time to spent now. After few years, i getting more mature. and i don't wanna think too much, and i just draw what i want to draw and what i like to express to my fav fandom. If you're facing the same problem as me, please don't give up drawing, because you will regret....like me. You can't imagine my friends who share a same period with me but they didn't give up, and now what i see is improvement and awesomeness. So, don't give up and don't care too much lol
Looking at my old work and my new work now, i guess you will see a big different. All my drawing now is starting over from ZERO. I decided to keep the old works here. I might not really active but i trying to continue drawing. I wish you will like NEW BORN's R0X :-D
I opened a tumblr last few month as my art blog. Please feel free to follow
Slow updating but at least is still ALIVE. hamsap-kid.tumblr.com/
Wish everyone a happy 2013! May your dream come true!